cast your demons aside..

Will i ever get to a point where I will stop using lack of confidance to change my situation? I feel like its an excuse I use to stop myself from feeling vulnerable or beinf at risk of rejection?

Will i ever care enough about myself TO change my situation and become the person I want to be? I dont know who that person is, but this person is scared, this person is scared that she wont have an excuse to hide behind when she does make a change? What if things still dont work out? what excuse will i have to hide behind then.

I have so many people around me that love me for who i am. But it's not enough, maybe thats the reason, that noone demands I change, and maybe thats the problem maybe im far too comforable.

bayside - demons

You could never really win
not to say you're born to lose
you were born to take 10th place out of 20 in the field
mistakes flow through your veins in a mediocre way

your life's a living hell
you've got gremlins in your blood cells
and monsters in your bed
their haunting you again
oh it must be this place at least thats what you say, say, say

you don't love you anymore
cast your demons aside
keep them close enough to know what your running from
soon you wont feel this anymore
cast your demons aside
keep them close enough to know that your moving on

the fire used to burn
in your heart and in your eyes
you used to dream you used to care you used to love you used to fight
for anything at all
you cover up your bedroom wall with who u want to be
now your afraid to be yourself so u search the mall for something else
You read magazines and watch MTV
you practiced it and everything
oh your dressed to impressed but you look like a drag queen

you don't love you anymore
cast your demons aside
keep them close enough to know what your running from
soon you wont feel this anymore
cast your demons aside
keep them close enough to know that your moving on

so keep your head up high
stretch inches into miles
because Brooklyn wasn't built in just a day
focus on important things
be your own gun like every ghost that held you down was gone
keep them close enough to know that your moving on

you don't love you anymore
cast your demons aside
keep them close enough to know what your running from
soon you wont feel this anymore
cast your demons aside
keep them close enough to know that your moving on