Thursday, August 13, 2009
I seriously can't fathom how the whole camp america process, filling out all the form, paying all the fees, getting references etc, has brought me to this amazing place.. everything i did leading up to it, i would never in a thousand years thought this is the time i'd be having, the friendships ive made, the AMAZING life changing experience this has been. And i NEVER thought i would this this sad knowing i have to leave.
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
wahwahwah
Ok so its August 12th.
My last post was June 14th. And camp ends in 11 days. What a rollercoaster ride of an experience. I started off knowing NOONE in this place. I left Australia with such uncertainty of where in Americ i was going to be sent, and you know what i was ok with that... I got sent to Camp Calumet Lutheran Camp for boys and girls. And it is now one my favourite places on the planet along with the thousands of people who come here every year and fall in love with it. I guess ive never been to another camp so I don't know.. i feel like this place has something in the water.. so many people who have met here have gotten married and now their children are friens cos they too have come to Calumet. I have 40+ new friends, and so many many more acquantes who for the most part have opened their arms up to me in their tight knit community of children, god & memories for life.
So many people here are phenomenal creatures, people like noone i have ever met, people who are themselves at camp more so than they are at home, many of them are somewhat younger than me, but i am so glad there are people that in 5 years time that will be my age and will be good people.
I havent left yet and I already miss it, and i feel like i have no choice bt to return next year.
We have a job here, to make kids have the best times of their lives! But in the process i am having the time of my life.. I'm pushing my self in ways that i didnt know i could but at the same time not at all. I feel like if i come back year ill need to work my way to things during this and next year so i can benefit from it even more. I feel worthwhile here, i feel like i have a job to do and that makes me feel good.
I guess the only downfall of being here is the fact that I'm 23 and the average age of people here are 17-20. So much of the stuff that goes on seems so immature and pointless to me, but i cant blame them fo wanting to have fun. I'm still making friends here everyday and it makes me sad that i have while its still happening.
I miss people at home alot, i want hugs from my friends back home. But my hear only aches every so often. I think its a constructive home sick. I appreciate what im doing so much that im not taking it for granted and letting missing my friends get in the way.
My last post was June 14th. And camp ends in 11 days. What a rollercoaster ride of an experience. I started off knowing NOONE in this place. I left Australia with such uncertainty of where in Americ i was going to be sent, and you know what i was ok with that... I got sent to Camp Calumet Lutheran Camp for boys and girls. And it is now one my favourite places on the planet along with the thousands of people who come here every year and fall in love with it. I guess ive never been to another camp so I don't know.. i feel like this place has something in the water.. so many people who have met here have gotten married and now their children are friens cos they too have come to Calumet. I have 40+ new friends, and so many many more acquantes who for the most part have opened their arms up to me in their tight knit community of children, god & memories for life.
So many people here are phenomenal creatures, people like noone i have ever met, people who are themselves at camp more so than they are at home, many of them are somewhat younger than me, but i am so glad there are people that in 5 years time that will be my age and will be good people.
I havent left yet and I already miss it, and i feel like i have no choice bt to return next year.
We have a job here, to make kids have the best times of their lives! But in the process i am having the time of my life.. I'm pushing my self in ways that i didnt know i could but at the same time not at all. I feel like if i come back year ill need to work my way to things during this and next year so i can benefit from it even more. I feel worthwhile here, i feel like i have a job to do and that makes me feel good.
I guess the only downfall of being here is the fact that I'm 23 and the average age of people here are 17-20. So much of the stuff that goes on seems so immature and pointless to me, but i cant blame them fo wanting to have fun. I'm still making friends here everyday and it makes me sad that i have while its still happening.
I miss people at home alot, i want hugs from my friends back home. But my hear only aches every so often. I think its a constructive home sick. I appreciate what im doing so much that im not taking it for granted and letting missing my friends get in the way.
Sunday, June 14, 2009
oh man i haven't listened to The Juliana Theory for a REALLY long time, kinda forgot how they made me feel.
So in about 18 hours I'll be on my way to the adventure of my life time!! little bit longer than the last one, not so many countries, but a different challenge, probably more physically challenging than anything. I'm so freakin nervous 1)Cos I'm going alone 2)Cos I'm leaving a good thing i have going here at home. But at the same time this is what I'm working towards :)
And how i love America, I know not many people do, I don't love the country for 90% of the dooshbags who live there. There is just something about being somewhere that kinda feels like home, yet is NOTHING like it.
I know I'm going to be fine, but like what normal person isn't anxious before a big trip! that's my excuse and I'm sticking with. Something tells me I'm not really going to miss many people back home, my dibs are on about 5 people in total, 2 of which are coming to LA to meet me and I CAAAN'T WAITT!!
I'm too anxious to write more hahaha. But I'm going to try and update on here to keep everyone including myself in the loop!!
Au Revoir friends <3
So in about 18 hours I'll be on my way to the adventure of my life time!! little bit longer than the last one, not so many countries, but a different challenge, probably more physically challenging than anything. I'm so freakin nervous 1)Cos I'm going alone 2)Cos I'm leaving a good thing i have going here at home. But at the same time this is what I'm working towards :)
And how i love America, I know not many people do, I don't love the country for 90% of the dooshbags who live there. There is just something about being somewhere that kinda feels like home, yet is NOTHING like it.
I know I'm going to be fine, but like what normal person isn't anxious before a big trip! that's my excuse and I'm sticking with. Something tells me I'm not really going to miss many people back home, my dibs are on about 5 people in total, 2 of which are coming to LA to meet me and I CAAAN'T WAITT!!
I'm too anxious to write more hahaha. But I'm going to try and update on here to keep everyone including myself in the loop!!
Au Revoir friends <3
Saturday, May 16, 2009
I'm surrounded by some pretty freaking amazing people in my life. It's such a nice feeling to know that you will be missed. I was so worried last time that noone would miss me, and slowly i cared less about that.
This time im going to leave for 5 months with the feeling that people i see pretty much almost everyday of my life, are going to miss me, and they would rather I stayed then left, and thats such a lovely feeling to have. I am so open about how i feel about people i love, it's amazing to have it given back.
This time im going to leave for 5 months with the feeling that people i see pretty much almost everyday of my life, are going to miss me, and they would rather I stayed then left, and thats such a lovely feeling to have. I am so open about how i feel about people i love, it's amazing to have it given back.
Monday, May 11, 2009
I can't wait to go to the grand canyon, and see vegas, and go back to san diego, and go back to NYC.
I'm leaving really soon, and im super excited :) I think that its coming @ a good time, cos work is slowly wearing me down, I'm slowly not being able to get through a whole day without getting really frustrated or upset. So i'll go away then be sweeeet when i come back.
I'm at the point where, i know i should be excited, but im just sad about the new frienships im leaving behind, and the old ones too, but i guess theyve stood the test of time before. I know im going to have an amazing time, and I'm going to come home and everything will be fine. But i always find a nice spot for myself somewhere then the need to mess it up.
Friday night is the Transurban 5 year party, we're hired a hotel room, and its going to be siiiick. Havent had an awesome night out in sooo long, and so many of my fave people at the moment will be there. SO i think it will be a fantastic opportunity to party it up, and spend som QT with people i love before i leave.
mishhhhhhhhhhhhx
I'm leaving really soon, and im super excited :) I think that its coming @ a good time, cos work is slowly wearing me down, I'm slowly not being able to get through a whole day without getting really frustrated or upset. So i'll go away then be sweeeet when i come back.
I'm at the point where, i know i should be excited, but im just sad about the new frienships im leaving behind, and the old ones too, but i guess theyve stood the test of time before. I know im going to have an amazing time, and I'm going to come home and everything will be fine. But i always find a nice spot for myself somewhere then the need to mess it up.
Friday night is the Transurban 5 year party, we're hired a hotel room, and its going to be siiiick. Havent had an awesome night out in sooo long, and so many of my fave people at the moment will be there. SO i think it will be a fantastic opportunity to party it up, and spend som QT with people i love before i leave.
mishhhhhhhhhhhhx
Sunday, May 10, 2009
you're my hero.
Thankyou for instilling everything good i have in me, I dont think i show it enough, but i love you more than anyone on this planet, and i hope someday i can give you to what you've given to me. Loving unconditionally, no matter how stubborn or selfish i am, sacrificing your happiness to make me and louise happy, and never telling us we couldnt do something. Allowing me to be the person i want to be and never questioning me on it, just allowing me to follow my passions and instincts & always listening and supporting, never judging.
You're my hero, and you deserve the world. i hope one day i can give it to you.
xxxx
Places I have encountered...
hoping to make north america a little more green over the next few months..
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